“They say ignorance is bliss, some other people with mental illness don’t see their descent but I do. I can see myself slipping. I can see the rational side and the logical side but I don’t believe it, I still believe the irrational side and I’m afraid of losing myself” I say to my psychologist… Read More I’m Back
I’ve been inactive since Christmas or New Year’s I’m not really sure now. I thought about what to write in the meantime. I thought I might write about my health kick that came when the New Year rang in but I couldn’t bring myself to write anything. So I thought I will just be honest.… Read More Time To Be Honest
When I was about 19 I started to cut myself. I used to cut up and down my inner forearms. I used to cut in winter because I was able to cover my scars with a cardigan or a jacket. I used to wrap them in bandages when I couldn’t use a jacket and told… Read More Overcoming Self-Harm
I went to work. I met with a friend. I came home. I’m watching TV with Rob. I’m doing everything I should be doing. Yet I still feel this horrible gaping feeling in my chest. I am going through the motions, smiling when I need to, laughing when I am supposed to but there is… Read More Penny For My Thoughts?
I had an appointment with Dr F, the psychologist today. I told her about the voice I heard the other night. Can you tell me what was going through your mind when you heard the voice? Well I had one part of me saying “don’t be ridiculous, you can see there is nobody here!” While another part… Read More Labeling the Noise
Today I had a session with my new psychologist Dr F. As usual I sat across from her, she doesn’t sit behind a desk while she talks to me, rather she too sits in an armchair. The conversation then feels more relaxed and natural, it doesn’t feel like I am being interrogated or interviewed. Today… Read More The State of Dissociation