I’ve been inactive since Christmas or New Year’s I’m not really sure now. I thought about what to write in the meantime. I thought I might write about my health kick that came when the New Year rang in but I couldn’t bring myself to write anything. So I thought I will just be honest.… Read More Time To Be Honest
Bipolar is a strange disorder. Often people picture a bipolar sufferer to be bursting at the seams with energy, creative and always starting new tasks and basically just crazy. That is during mania or hypomania. When depressed someone with bipolar can lose all focus, where there was once a zest for life and an eagerness… Read More Bipolar Depression – Early Forms
“I belong with you, you belong with me, you’re my sweetheart” these are some of the lyrics to the song Ho Hey by The Lumineers. I walked down the aisle to this song sung by my youngest brother. So it holds a lot of sentiment to me. In fact I am listening to the song… Read More Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy
I’ve mentioned before that I am on lithium (mood stabiliser) and seroquel (antipsychotic). I went on medication because of my mixed moods and my delusional paranoia. Both medications were increased due to my worsening mixed moods but mainly to combat my hallucinations. I don’t remember when exactly the hallucinations started. I hallucinate during the day,… Read More Reasons to Medicate
Christmas Eve was a success. Christmas Day… not so much. I woke up at around 7 am with less than 3 hours sleep. I had a migraine from the heat and the extreme lack of sleep. The migraine was coming from just above my left eye (there are still faint remnants of that migraine as… Read More Holiday Blues
I had a session with the Doc today. “Have the hallucinations gotten better?” No I tell him. I tell him about the man I saw walking behind Rob in our parking lot basement last week, the man who wasn’t there on second glance. I looked but he wasn’t there. I tell him about the music… Read More Side Effects or Madness
I went to work. I met with a friend. I came home. I’m watching TV with Rob. I’m doing everything I should be doing. Yet I still feel this horrible gaping feeling in my chest. I am going through the motions, smiling when I need to, laughing when I am supposed to but there is… Read More Penny For My Thoughts?
So I was asked to come in for an unscheduled or emergency session if you will. The walk to the Doc’s office took ten minutes longer thanks to the drowsiness of the seroquel increase. I sat across from his as always and began to explain to him the symptoms I have been experiencing. The Doc… Read More Beneath the Surface
Today I put an emergency text through to my psychiatrist after another night of hallucinations. I am honestly struggling to write this now. It’s very difficult to explain to you that I am losing grip with reality let alone be able to write about it ‘eloquently’. Last night as I was trying to get to… Read More One Step Closer to the Edge…
Yesterday I agreed to travel over an hour on a train to see one of the most amazing friends I’ve ever had, Johnny. Johnny is the type of friend everybody needs to have. He is energetic and quirky. He is the kindest, patient and most loving friend you could ask for. And funny, the image… Read More Don’t Stop Me Now