Hi my name is Rebecca and I have Bipolar

My name is Rebecca, I am 28 years old, recently married and I suffer from Bipolar Disorder and ADHD.

I first started to show signs of depression in my teenage years. At the age of 18 I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and prescribed Effexor to treat my depression. At the age of 20 I went through my first manic episode. After a psychotic and incredibly destructive manic episode I crashed into a severe, deep and dark depression. I was then diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. Over the next few years I cycled through manic, hypomanic and depressive episodes and was on and off medications.

In 2015, after taking Duromine (a hunger suppressant) I went into a hypomanic episode. A friend of mine had noticed the change in me and he and my husband then convinced me to seek psychiatric care.  It was after seeing a psychiatrist that I was then diagnosed with ADHD as well. I was then put on a cocktail of psychiatric drugs, trying and testing different medications and always in search for the perfect combination. 3 months ago I decided to take myself off my medication but after finding myself in a mixed episode I am back on the pills and regularly seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist.

My relationships, jobs, education and life in general have been severely affected by my mental health complications. I have faced the harsh reality of stigma and fear of those who suffer from mental illness, both in subtle and obvious ways. I am generally open about my mental illness, especially if I am trying to raise awareness of the issue or if I feel it will help someone with their own struggles. Lately though, I have felt that this is not enough. As progressive as our world may seem, those of us who do have a mental health illness often have to battle stigma and ignorance. Through this blog, my aim is to do my part in raising awareness, to educate people on what it is like to live with a mental illness and to help people find the courage to seek help when needed and to take control of their recovery.