Christmas Eve was a success. Christmas Day… not so much. I woke up at around 7 am with less than 3 hours sleep. I had a migraine from the heat and the extreme lack of sleep. The migraine was coming from just above my left eye (there are still faint remnants of that migraine as… Read More Holiday Blues
Christmas is a very special time for me but this year it is bittersweet. This is mine and Rob’s first Christmas as husband and wife but it is also my family’s second Christmas since my mother left. Growing up our household was never short on Christmas cheer. Our house was always a winter wonderland, the… Read More Christmas Is Not The Same Without You
I had a session with the Doc today. “Have the hallucinations gotten better?” No I tell him. I tell him about the man I saw walking behind Rob in our parking lot basement last week, the man who wasn’t there on second glance. I looked but he wasn’t there. I tell him about the music… Read More Side Effects or Madness
She ran away in the middle of the night took nothing but a bank card and her license. She left no clues beside a note, a note indicating that we should be concerned for her safety. We searched everywhere we could think of. The police were notified as were our family friends. They found her… Read More Broken
I went to work. I met with a friend. I came home. I’m watching TV with Rob. I’m doing everything I should be doing. Yet I still feel this horrible gaping feeling in my chest. I am going through the motions, smiling when I need to, laughing when I am supposed to but there is… Read More Penny For My Thoughts?
Today is my husband’s birthday eve. He doesn’t know I am writing this and to be honest, I don’t really know what I am going to write. Yes it’s easy to be romantic and sappy but our relationship has gone light years past that and to be honest my medication has been taking it’s toll… Read More Happy Birthday Husband
So I was asked to come in for an unscheduled or emergency session if you will. The walk to the Doc’s office took ten minutes longer thanks to the drowsiness of the seroquel increase. I sat across from his as always and began to explain to him the symptoms I have been experiencing. The Doc… Read More Beneath the Surface
Today I put an emergency text through to my psychiatrist after another night of hallucinations. I am honestly struggling to write this now. It’s very difficult to explain to you that I am losing grip with reality let alone be able to write about it ‘eloquently’. Last night as I was trying to get to… Read More One Step Closer to the Edge…
Yesterday I agreed to travel over an hour on a train to see one of the most amazing friends I’ve ever had, Johnny. Johnny is the type of friend everybody needs to have. He is energetic and quirky. He is the kindest, patient and most loving friend you could ask for. And funny, the image… Read More Don’t Stop Me Now
I’ve been put on lithium after being told by my psychiatrist, let’s call him Doc now, that my bipolar has brought me to the edge of psychosis and that I am at real risk of becoming completely manic. I become very upset at hearing that I have to go back on the dreaded lithium, the… Read More Lithium – Love It or Hate It