I haven’t really written about my ADHD and that’s mainly because it is a relatively new diagnosis and to be honest I’m not really sure where my bipolar ends and my ADHD starts. Bipolar sufferers are often misdiagnosed with ADHD and vice versa but it is no secret that there are overlapping symptoms. Personally, my ADHD… Read More What was I doing again?
I had an appointment with Dr F, the psychologist today. I told her about the voice I heard the other night. Can you tell me what was going through your mind when you heard the voice? Well I had one part of me saying “don’t be ridiculous, you can see there is nobody here!” While another part… Read More Labeling the Noise
26 November 2016 I ended up falling asleep sometime after 1 this morning. I wake up roughly 5 hours later, rested and energised. I try to make myself sleep more because the part of me that is still monitoring my symptoms knows that a decreased need for sleep is not a good sign. Who cares… Read More Weekend Part Two
This post is one of two parts. I generally write draft posts throughout the day so you can see my thoughts, symptoms and moods as they happen. 25th November 2016 It’s Friday. I had poor sleep last night again because I have become increasingly afraid of the dark. I come back to my desk to… Read More Weekend Part One
I am so afraid to close my eyes because I will hear that voice again, singing ever so eerily. I am staring towards my bedroom door, my whole body faces that way to keep an eye out for what I KNOW is lurking in the shadows. I can FEEL it there watching me and waiting… Read More The Things That Go Bump In The Night
Today I had a session with my new psychologist Dr F. As usual I sat across from her, she doesn’t sit behind a desk while she talks to me, rather she too sits in an armchair. The conversation then feels more relaxed and natural, it doesn’t feel like I am being interrogated or interviewed. Today… Read More The State of Dissociation
I am currently in a mixed episode. I am primarily in a hypomanic state whilst showing symptoms of mild depression. Mixed states are in a league of their own. I cannot keep up with my moods. Earlier tonight I was feeling depressed, I didn’t want to talk, move or do anything. An hour later and… Read More Mixed Much?
Living with Bipolar is extremely exhausting and difficult. Bipolar affects every aspect of your life, starting off in the confines of your own mind and slowly seeping out and infecting every part of your being, your relationships, your job and your quality of life. Bipolar is not a visible illness but it is incredibly disabling.… Read More Living With Bipolar