Anxiety, complete molar pregnancy, d&c, Depression, early pregnancy loss, Family, Love, Marriage, miscarriage, molar pregnancy, pregnancy, Relationships, Uncategorized

My Pain

The past week I have been having trouble sleeping and it has been getting worse. My mind is plagued with worry, fear and a heartbreaking grief that never seems to subside. Most of the people close to Rob and I know that we had a miscarriage in April this year. What almost nobody knows is… Read More My Pain

Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, Family, Love, Mania, Mixed Episode, New Beginnings, OCD, Psychosis, PTSD, Relationships, Self-Harm, Suicide, Treatment, Uncategorized

Letter to my 4 year old self

Hi Rebecca, I’ve had several people now suggest to me that I should write to you. At first, I didn’t want to, actually for a while I couldn’t, mainly because I couldn’t bring myself to face you. I couldn’t bring myself to tell you of all the things that are yet to happen to you,… Read More Letter to my 4 year old self

Antipsychotic, Bipolar, Depression, Love, Marriage, Medication, Mood Stabiliser, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Self-Harm, Suicide, Treatment

Time To Be Honest

I’ve been inactive since Christmas or New Year’s I’m not really sure now. I thought about what to write in the meantime. I thought I might write about my health kick that came when the New Year rang in but I couldn’t bring myself to write anything. So I thought I will just be honest.… Read More Time To Be Honest

Bipolar, Depression, Medication, Mood Stabiliser, Psychiatrist, Treatment

Bipolar Depression – Early Forms

Bipolar is a strange disorder. Often people picture a bipolar sufferer to be bursting at the seams with energy, creative and always starting new tasks and basically just crazy. That is during mania or hypomania. When depressed someone with bipolar can lose all focus, where there was once a zest for life and an eagerness… Read More Bipolar Depression – Early Forms

Antipsychotic, Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, Family, Love, Mania, Marriage, Medication, Mixed Episode, Mood Stabiliser, Psychosis, Relationships

Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy

“I belong with you, you belong with me, you’re my sweetheart” these are some of the lyrics to the song Ho Hey by The Lumineers. I walked down the aisle to this song sung by my youngest brother. So it holds a lot of sentiment to me. In fact I am listening to the song… Read More Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy

Antipsychotic, Bipolar, Mania, Medication, Mixed Episode, Mood Stabiliser, Psychiatrist, Psychosis, Treatment

Reasons to Medicate

I’ve mentioned before that I am on lithium (mood stabiliser) and seroquel (antipsychotic). I went on medication because of my mixed moods and my delusional paranoia. Both medications were increased due to my worsening mixed moods but mainly to combat my hallucinations. I don’t remember when exactly the hallucinations started. I hallucinate during the day,… Read More Reasons to Medicate